Kelli Hansel Haywood
  • Events/Offerings/Support
    • Sacred Catharsis: A Chakra Journey Through the Lower Triangle
    • Chakra Analysis
  • Blog
  • About Kelli Hansel
  • Book - Sacred Catharsis
  • Curriculum Vitae

Appalachian Writer and Yogi on a Spiritual Path

A Day in a Life

2/12/2015

1 Comment

 
I spent most of yesterday evening with my daughters at the hospice center where my grandmother is being cared for.  She isn't doing well, and yesterday they called for us to come.  I've never been with someone as they passed, other than my pets.  It's very hard to watch labored breathing.  I found myself trying to breathe for her, long deep yoga breaths.

This morning, things seem a little better with her.  She's breathing easier.  It's unbelievable how we truly cannot know from one day to the next how our lives will change and yet so much of life is based on whether we can overcome the fear of the risks included in recognizing and living the lives we were born to live.

Today, is a very normal day.  The girls and I ate breakfast, finished school work, watched it snow an inch in an hour, tidied up, I did yoga, ate lunch, and now I'm blogging.  I'm feeling guilty for not being a bit more active today.  Heck, I always feel guilty for that even when I've busted tail.  I wonder what the next months will be like, and whether or not I can support myself through them.  I have a plan.  It's a good plan.  I'll share it here bit by bit.

This is one day in my life.  One small part of a year.  A speck of a lifetime.  It's a good day.

At one point last night, my grandmother opened her eyes and said, "It's been a pretty pleasant evening."  Hearing her say it relieved my heart whether or not she was referring to last evening, or an evening long ago.  Pleasant was an evening.  That's a big deal.

Today, I read this quote by Anne Lamott.    
Oh my God, what if you wake up one day, and your 65, or 75, and you never got your memoir or novel written; or you didn't go swimming in warm pools or oceans all those years because your thighs were jiggly, and you had a nice big comfortable tummy; or you were just so strung out on perfectionism and people-pleasing that you forgot to have a big juicy creative life of imagination and radical silliness and staring off into space like when you were a kid?  It's going to break your heart.  Don't let this happen. - Anne Lamott
I want to know that I won't let this happen.  Today, this one day in a life, I'm pretty positive it won't.  I'm sure that as I age, I want to not fear the finite part of life, but reach out into those unknown bits that let us soar into the clouds with two feet on the ground.  Like I did the day I gave birth to my Gweneth.  Like this woman.

Tao-Porchon Lynch - 96 year old yoga teacher and ballroom dancer
1 Comment
Margate Washing Machine Repair link
7/4/2022 08:21:41 am

Nice post

Reply



Leave a Reply.

    Picture

    Author

    Kelli Hansel Haywood is the mother of three daughters living in the mountains of southeastern Kentucky. She is a writer, weightlifter, yoga and movement instructor, chakra reader, and Reiki practitioner.

    ​Find Kelli on Instagram - @darkmoon_kelli

    Categories

    All
    Advocacy
    Aging
    Anxiety
    Appalachia
    Body Image
    Cooking
    Darkness
    Depression
    Divine Feminine
    Embodiment
    Empowerment
    Food
    Gardening
    Grief
    Hashimoto's Thyroiditis
    Healing
    Health
    Healthcare
    Homesteading
    Kentucky
    Kundalini Yoga
    Mental Health
    Migraines
    Motherhood
    Mothering
    Pain
    Paleo Diet
    Parenting
    Personal Growth
    Postpartum
    Risk Assessment
    Rural
    Self Care
    Shadow Work
    Social Media
    Spirituality
    Spiritual Practice
    Suicide
    Tradition
    Traditional Foods
    Trauma
    Weight Loss
    Womanhood
    Writing
    Yoga

    Archives

    September 2021
    April 2020
    July 2019
    May 2019
    April 2019
    March 2019
    February 2019
    October 2018
    September 2018
    August 2018
    June 2018
    April 2018
    February 2018
    September 2017
    July 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    January 2017
    August 2016
    May 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016
    November 2015
    October 2015
    September 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    April 2015
    March 2015
    February 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    October 2014
    September 2014
    July 2014
    June 2014
    May 2014
    December 2013

    RSS Feed

Contact Kelli

    Subscribe Today!

Submit
  • Events/Offerings/Support
    • Sacred Catharsis: A Chakra Journey Through the Lower Triangle
    • Chakra Analysis
  • Blog
  • About Kelli Hansel
  • Book - Sacred Catharsis
  • Curriculum Vitae