Homebase

Breathe and be more alive. - Ravi Singh

This week is huge for me in terms of possibilities for the future.  I'm interviewing for work I can be passionate about on Thursday.  I am preparing to send in a grant proposal for further opportunities with my writing.  I've taken the girls school shopping as their first year of schooling away from home will begin next week.  I shared my yoga practice with nine people as the instructor in my class on Monday at the recreation center.  It was a beautiful energy.  I have also taken some steps to adopt an autoimmune paleo diet and lifestyle.  In all this effort, it is so easy to simply get caught up in the momentum, but sometimes we must pull back and take the time to notice the details of the doing rather than focusing on an end goal.

Today, I'm reminding myself to move one step at a time.  I'm not taking anything off the plate.  I'm taking the time to savor each bite and notice how it nourishes my body and mind.  Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "Do the thing and you will have the power."  Rather than wondering if I will get the job, the girls will be happy in their new school, the diet will improve my Hashimotos symptoms, or I will get the grant, I have to take a moment and credit myself for doing the thing.  In order to be alive, I must remember to breathe right now.

This is part of teaching myself patience.  Patience with myself, my daughters, situations, and those around me.    Einstein said, "Time is an illusion."  Mario Benedetti reminds us that, "Five minutes are enough to dream a whole life, that is how relative time is."  With our breath and mind, we can slow down time or speed it up.  How we perceive a happening determines the brevity or endlessness it is made of.  It is this moment that matters now.

Einstein also helped reveal to the world that energy isn't created or destroyed, it can only be changed from one form to another.  What must I do to change my experience of this life?  Change the form of the energy I devote to it.  My efforts will be rewarded regardless of the outcome of the effort because the energy I am spending cannot be for naught.  It is a real and tangible force more ancient than time.  However, it is the intention and the process with which I expel this energy that will guide me to the outcome that is right for me.  It is right now that matters.

I have one more week to spend as a completely stay at home mother.  I have right now to bring myself back to self care so that I can nurture mind, body, spirit into a condition that allows me to properly share my gifts with others.  I have lunch and supper left today to take the time to feed my body nourishing food to gain strength for tomorrow.  It is today that I should express my heart to those I care about.  Today, I come to my yoga mat with reverent and light energy, ready to learn from Source.

Homebase is right this moment.

Photo by Deladis Rose Haywood

When I can't seem to find the balance and patience I need to feel grounded, I go to my mat.  Time is in its deepest sense relative there.  Life there is a journey where the destination is the same as the beginning.  Sat Nam - Truth is my name.

Sometimes, often times, I reach out to my friends for support.  I call out for some good vibes.  I have a few friends who hold a very grounding energy for me, and I call on them to speak to my scattered and windy energy.  They bring me back to the process, reminding me that I am doing the thing, and therefore I have the power.  

Yoga, friends, and remembering I need to care for myself.  "Process the process." - Ravi Singh  These things bring me home to the moment, to reverence for the process, and ground me in the relativity of time.  These things help me be patient. 

I have to say that I'm proud of myself over the last month.  I've done the work I need to do to know where my center lies and how to get back there when the wind of my hopes and dreams takes me here, there, and yonder.  I wonder if those close to me notice it.  I've chosen to focus in the process.  I've chosen to do and be patient with the rest.  I wonder if I appear grateful, or new.  I feel like I'm becoming new.

Photo by Deladis Rose Haywood